Despair In A Bottle...

Despair in the bottle....

By : AngelWriter

All my life, I have known that you are not going to be able to fix your problems, by getting to the bottom of the bottle.
However, now I am doing the same thing my father use to do, running to the bottle.
I know its not a good thing, and I know I will regret it in the end
but for now, its the one thing, that helps the pain end.

I never thought that I would be one, to feel the need to drink away the pain
but no matter what other tricks I tried, nothing took away this terrible pain.
So I grab a bottle, and head for the laptop, in hopes, that no one can see through my mask
and no one will know, that I am even wearing a mask.

The pain is one that I never though that I would ever have to feel like this.
I never thought there was pain like this, I never though that someone could deal with this.
I lost so much, I lost the one I Love and I love my best friend
But I have found the bottle of Vody, who has now become my best friend.

I am able to forget about the pain, and about the hurt, when I am with my best friend
Sometimes when life just hurts this much, all you can relay on, is your best friend.
I feel so weak, and so alone, and completly out of control
Wondering if I will ever gain sense of control.

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2 Responses Jul 12, 2010

once again I'm fortunate I don't drink and never did do any drugs, thank God...<br />
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I hope your pain heals

So sorry my dear. I use the other one... starts with an "M", ends with a "wanna". I abuse the bottle myself, but I must say that on a "Consumer Reports" level, I prefer the herbal substitute.