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By: EvanescentParadise
Written on January 2nd, 2012
My tears stain the paper I write on. This wretchèd curse, far worse than I ever could have imagined, is tearing my mind, heart and soul to pieces. But you just stand there and watch as if I am nothing to you, as if every word you've ever told me was a lie. At this point, I'm starting to believe that lies was all our relationship was built off of. You used me, tossed me to the ground, only to come back, trying to use me again. I am done with the games that keep you so entertained and I am done being your puppet. I can do so much better than you yet for some reason I keep crawling back, begging for more. The gashes on my heart that you have left are far deeper than I ever could have imagined.
By: EvanescentParadise
Age: 18-21 , Female
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14 responses
  • viperssting
    viperssting

    Hi seaoflonliness, i too can understand ur pain. No doubt, the pain of being hurt by a loved one is universally the same, irrespective of cast, creed, gender or age. I have often wondered as to how can people even live after making the life of that person miserable who love thyem so purely, I will die of guilt within a matter of days if I did any such thing in my life.....May God bless you with the strength to carry on with your life dear. Pls take care.

    Jan 20, 2012
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  • viperssting
    viperssting

    Hi seaoflonliness, i too can understand ur pain. No doubt, the pain of being hurt by a loved one is universally the same, irrespective of cast, creed, gender or age. I have often wondered as to how can people even live after making the life of that person miserable who love thyem so purely, I will die of guilt within a matter of days if I did any such thing in my life.....May God bless you with the strength to carry on with your life dear. Pls take care.

    Jan 20, 2012
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  • brokerichard
    brokerichard

    Seaoflonliness: I can only tell you like it really is...This person has hurt you deeply, you will forever be scared by that, and you will be ever so slow to move into the next relationship (which you eventually will) You will never , for the rest of your life, forget this person, regardless of how much you love the new person in your life, that's the way it works...young love is the deepest...regardless of what everyone tells you...It's tough, it sucks, and it is something that took me many relationships and many decades to realize, you won't get over it, but you can learn from it, I feel for you, I do empathize and I do care, so do a lot of other people...we are less involved, but we all care and offer a shoulder to cry on or a punching bag, if you need one...that's what friends are for.

    Jan 18, 2012
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  • DAW2012
    DAW2012

    Life can be so hard some times but seeing but you have seen the light then you have made the first move yes it is hard its dame hard. I do not know what happed in your case but please co me to me I have been throw alot myself and maybe I can help you. But you have made the first step good for you .

    Jan 6, 2012
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  • LadyBronte
    LadyBronte

    I'm sorry. I understand how you feel.

    Jan 2, 2012
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  • gllr
    gllr

    Being used by some one that you do care for is extremely hard to overcome. Please don't give on yourself. I know that you will not believe an old man, but you must try to move on. There is some one out there that will the person of your dreams. I wish I could give the answer of when or where you will meet, I just can't give you. Good luck.

    Jan 2, 2012
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    • EvanescentParadise
      EvanescentParadise

      Thank you for that. And who says I won't believe you?

      Jan 2, 2012
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    • gllr
      gllr

      I am just an old man with simple ideas. A lot of time people don't understand me, and my answers. I just tell what I feel from the cold stones from my heart. Actually it is the pin cushion that the wizard gave the tin man in the movie Wizard Of OZ.

      Jan 2, 2012
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  • EvanescentParadise
    EvanescentParadise

    Yeah sure but I'm "not allowed" on your page so come on mine and add me

    Jan 2, 2012
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  • girlcapitol
    girlcapitol

    painfully familiar. you will look back someday, from love and peace.

    Jan 2, 2012
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