Yeah..Someone gives it to me, sometimes. I'll have it and take it regularly for several days, and then I'll run out and go a couple weeks without. If I had access to it all the time, I know I would become addicted.
It makes things more manageable...it makes me feel like a normal human being...it eases the social anxiety and the paranoia. I love it, if only it didn't make me so sleepy. And I hate how much I love it. I'm considering asking this person to stop giving it to me, even when I ask for it. I don't need it.