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My dearest Treesie,

   I am so sorry for all you've been through sweetheart. If I could take it all back, I would. I know how sad, and hurt you've been. I didn't stick up for you when I should have. I promise I will now. I know there are monsters inside that make you cry. I know how scared you are, but I'm going to tell you a little secret that I just figured out..........You are so sweet, so lovable. You have no idea what an absolutely delightful child you have been to get to know. I enjoy our little rock hunting tours on the beach. Sitting out under our tree & just listening to the wind talk to the branches. Listening to the squirrels & laughing at them telling us off. I love to hear your laughter when I make a funny noise. The way you tilt your head when you're holding Becky, in order to hear her snore. You are the sweetest part of me Treesie, and I promise I won't let you down again. I love you sweetheart and I will always be here for you.....From now on, it's me & you kid.........

All my love; Teri xo

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Dear Teri;

  Ok girl, we gotta talk. I understand your anger sweetie. I'm angry too, but we've got to stop blaming ourselves for all that's gone on. We were young, didn't realize the amount of damage that one decision was gonna cost us. We didn't KNOW. A friend isn't suppose to betray you. A friend is suppose to pick you up, support you. Not tear you down & hurt you. There was nothing you could have done to change it. You've done well for your-self. You found ways to survive. You learned to blend in. You are worth so much more than you think. You can yell at me, scream until you're blue. You can hit me, or just write angry letters. I don't care, because no matter what you do, I'm going to continue to LOVE YOU, and one day you'll believe it and know you're worth it. I'm here Teri, & I'm not going anywhere, ever. I promise.

With Love, WynHaven xoxo

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WynHaven,

 Your letter is the hardest for me to write, because I know you better than anyone. I know how much pain is inside that beat up old heart of yours. I know how much you've given to your family and your younger selves trying to make them ok. What you haven't realized is that unless you find a way to forgive yourself, & love everything about you.........They aren't going to be able to. In order to free them, we have to free ourself. Do you understand? I know that EP is helping, I know that you love this site & all the friends you've made here, but you have got to start caring more for yourself. How about a few more walks with Treesie? Or a game of solitaire with Teri. Just little things. I really like to get back to quilting too, if you're up for it. No, we don't have to work on the baby quilt, I know how painful that still is. You need to let him go. He wasn't right for you and we didn't think we deserved better. WE DO.... I'll be the strong one when you need it. I'll love you, even on your ugly days, but you have to promise me that you're gonna try. For all of us, because if you can't help us break this wall we're hiding behind, we may never be free. Don't you want to be free??? To smell the sunshine, go out for coffee without fear, to know that the next guy you sleep with isn't going to hurt you? I want that for us, don't you? So, let's deal, I'll be strong for you & you help me figure out a way to get us out of this prison we built. K? I love ya WynHaven, you're everything I'll ever need. Truly.....

All my love & Goddess' Blessings,

 Me xxxooo

 

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