Loving My Best Friend

My lover is also my best friend and I can't exactly remember which happened first. We've been dating for 6 years now and neither of us are exactly thrilled with change. Though he has not proposed yet, we've talked immensely about furthering our relationship in the near future. Both of us are involved in new careers and it's hectic. Marriage would be wonderful, even children I suppose. But I'm scared to death I'll be losing my best friend. I don't know why I feel that way. Right now we do everything together. I can tell him anything at all that's on my mind. I never imagined a man who could be more in love with me. It's quite addicting actually. We even go shopping together and have terrific fun. He's amazing and the love we share is truly something from a fairytale. Yet we both are nervous about moving in together and somehow losing everything that we already have. Neither of us have had the best luck, so purhaps we're just expecting something horrific to happen. I suppose only time will tell. Which is exactly what frightens me. He's talking about buying a home together as soon as next year. This should be the most exciting part of my life, how come it's not?
PurityWind PurityWind
26-30, F
2 Responses Jul 14, 2007

take a chance. You only live once. make the best of your life.

I think you might just be worried to won't come true =/ I hope it does.