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I Loved Someone Even Though They Hurt Me

Jackass

By: dadysgirl21
Written on February 2nd, 2013
I loved him and gave him all I had. Towards the end I cheated. We had to move and I hoped it would fix our relationship. It didn't. He wouldn't get a job. We found out I was pregnant and I quit my job due to health issues. One day we were arguing and he slapped my arm as hard as he could. I kicked him out. I missed him. We fought for months and tried to work it out at the same time. He eventually found out I had cheated. He wound up in jail. He is out on probation now. I thought my feelings were gone. After all its been a year and a half. I decided I would be able to handle talking to him. His other son was born 17 days ago. Well tonight I realized I am jealous of her. He is really trying to work things out with her. Yet she knows how he is and I find her completely stupid for trying. I find myself wanting to ask him why her and not me. why her son and not mine. Why this why that. So I deleted his number. Now I am frustrated and GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I still love the jackass somewhat.
By: dadysgirl21
Age: 22-25 , Female
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18 responses
  • fryertuck
    fryertuck

    Why do young women choose loosers

    Mar 31
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    • dadysgirl21
      dadysgirl21

      same reason young guys choose *******

      Mar 31
      1 like
    • fryertuck
      fryertuck

      Good point opposites attract.

      Mar 31
      1 like
  • funlove87
    funlove87

    Your a strong women and you will move on and find someone better for you and your son stay strong and live for you and your son enjoy the moments you have now ley the past die and look forward to the amazing life you have ahead of you.

    Feb 7
    3 likes
  • fredcs
    fredcs

    The best way to move on is to find someone else to love. Set the standard you are looking for. Define what you want and need of a man, then look for a man who best fits that definition and you should have someone with whom you can have a fulfilling relationship. Your schmucky EX will fade into the background...

    Feb 4
    3 likes
    • dadysgirl21
      dadysgirl21

      hmmmmm standards... they will be really high

      Feb 7
      1 like
    • fredcs
      fredcs

      They should be. Aren't you worth it?

      Feb 7
      1 like
  • Rachellouisedavies
    Rachellouisedavies

    Would you have felt differently if he had spanked you rather than slapped like that?

    Feb 3
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    • dadysgirl21
      dadysgirl21

      at that point in our relationship no. before that yes.

      Feb 7
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    • Rachellouisedavies
      Rachellouisedavies

      I think husband should be able to spank

      Feb 7
      1 like
  • bowlingguy54
    bowlingguy54

    Your son would be better off without his father in his life. Otherwise he may grow to be just like daddy.
    Would you want that?

    Feb 3
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    • dadysgirl21
      dadysgirl21

      nope. not one bit. which is why he hasnt met him

      Feb 7
      1 like
  • LadyChatterly
    LadyChatterly

    You did the right thing deleting his number. You are young, use your energy to find a guy who suits you better. It is easier than trying to change someone. You have a lot of love to give, give it to someone who is worthy of it.

    Feb 3
    2 likes
  • easyeye
    easyeye

    I am sure it is frustrating to love someone that you are probably pretty sure is never going to conform to the person you need them to be... he probably wants his cake and to eat it too... wwants you and the other girl... we get sexually needy and it is probably easier to get it quick from someone you have a history with than to get to that point with someone new.....i wish i could get you off .. at least from long distance.. but i know that is no substitute for the real thing.....have you ever had any kind of sex with another woman?

    Feb 3
    1 like
  • abby1965
    abby1965

    we all have someone that we will always have feeling for people that we have been with or have loved but it dose get better!

    Feb 2
    2 likes
  • freezerboy
    freezerboy

    WOW you have very deep feeling and you are very caring person. I hope it all works out for you,, life is hard. Smile when you can and laugh with your son

    Feb 2
    1 like
    • dadysgirl21
      dadysgirl21

      thank you. i try to do those things :)

      Feb 7
      1 like