I loved him and gave him all I had. Towards the end I cheated. We had to move and I hoped it would fix our relationship. It didn't. He wouldn't get a job. We found out I was pregnant and I quit my job due to health issues. One day we were arguing and he slapped my arm as hard as he could. I kicked him out. I missed him. We fought for months and tried to work it out at the same time. He eventually found out I had cheated. He wound up in jail. He is out on probation now. I thought my feelings were gone. After all its been a year and a half. I decided I would be able to handle talking to him. His other son was born 17 days ago. Well tonight I realized I am jealous of her. He is really trying to work things out with her. Yet she knows how he is and I find her completely stupid for trying. I find myself wanting to ask him why her and not me. why her son and not mine. Why this why that. So I deleted his number. Now I am frustrated and GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I still love the jackass somewhat.