Happy Ending

I fell in love with him when I was 17. He was 20 and for me it was pretty much love at first sight. He was very outgoing, charming, funny, sexy, mysterious, and a bad boy. We became friends and I thought (naively) that it would be that easy...it never is. I couldn't understand why he didn't seem to be interested in dating me. He liked me, he "got" me, he was single, I thought he was attracted to me...what else do you need? I didn't leave much doubt as to how I felt about him, but he always changed the subject. We fooled around a few times, but nothing more. When I met him, he'd recently broken up with someone, but they got back together off and on. He would tell me about her, about other girls. I pretended to be OK with it, but I thought about him all the time, was only happy when he was around, cried a lot, bored my friends by analyzing the situation to death (he was the only thing I was interested in): in short, I pined for him! After a couple of years I met someone else and we fell in love. I still talked to the first guy, I still loved him, but wasn't going to put my life on hold for him. My boyfriend knew about the first guy (me and my big mouth!), so he was less than happy about me being in touch with him. Eventually, after about a year of dating my boyfriend, I lost touch with the first guy. At first, I thought that not talking to him or seeing him would cure me of my obsession. I couldn't have been more wrong. I thought about him every day. I missed him every day. I still cried over him every so often. I constantly thought I'd run into him. I looked for him everywhere. I seemed to think about him more and more instead of less and less. At a certain point, he was so present in my thoughts that I wondered if I needed professional help! During all this time, I was still with my boyfriend. We dated for over five years and then he broke up with me. With that drama to distract me, I almost stopped thinking about the first guy. It took two more years for the breakup to become really final and during those two years, I still thought about the first guy but my energy was concentrated on fixing my relationship with my boyfriend. I finally ended it. I was really single for the first time in almost eight years and I was happy. I still thought about the first guy every day, but it wasn't obsessive like before. It was almost like I'd imagined him. I hadn't seen him or heard from him in almost seven years. I didn't know if he was alive or dead. Then, one day, out of the blue we ran into each other again. I couldn't believe it! I was thrilled (I was hyperventilating!!). He was thrilled. He gave me his number. I didn't call him right away (didn't want him to think I was the same little girl he used to know!). Two weeks later he asked me out and we've now been together for 4 years. Has it been rose petals and sugarplums? Of course not! It's real life but I never actually thought something like this could happen to me. So, to all of you out there pining after someone like I was for all those years: don't put your life on hold, but don't expect those feelings to magically disappear either. We don't know what the future holds for us and sometimes dreams do come true.
CandyAppleRed CandyAppleRed
36-40, F
3 Responses Mar 2, 2007

I liked your story, it sounds like something i'm going through at the moment it's not easy forgetting about someone who is always in your heart and your right you never know what the future holds so every one has to hold on to there dreams and goals!

Your story is very touching. Sometimes, you think time or someone will heal old wounds but in reality, the wounds would only heal if the one who caused it will make it disappear. :)

I have a story very similar to yours. I know exactly what you are talking about with the first guy. Do you really think dreams can come true?...because sometimes I think that dreams don't come true for a reason also...