Story Of A Fool

I wasn't in love with you. I was in love with the idea of you in my head. The idealized version of you. The version that actually cared for me and loved me... The version I so desperately tried to hold on to because I didn't want to face the truth. (What a coward I was!) The real you didn't love me. Never could. Never will. Which makes everything a lie... Because the person I loved (and unfortunately still do) doesn't exist. And this really hurts... and makes me look like a pathetic fool...
stardust7 stardust7
18-21, F
9 Responses Mar 9, 2012

You are not pathetic. When we fall for someone, we tend to put blinders on and ignore their faults. We want to believe that someone for whom we have such strong feelings is worthy of our love and adoration. Even if they don't love us back. I am struggling with this right now. I want to be with this man so badly, and I am sure reality could never live up to the fantasy I have built in my mind. If he is so great, why doesn't he see what is in front of him?

Know the feeling :( Sucks ugh<br />
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Well said hun

thanks for the comments guys... sometimes all i'm thinking is: dear cupid, why can't you for once hit both...

That's part of human nature I guess, falling in love with our illusions of people. Then we get heartbroken and it's hard to pick up the pieces. I try to not expect much out of people anymore.

I also try not to have any expectations at all. I am sure that all the problems begin when you start having expectations from the other person instead of simply accepting what he/she has to offer. But every once in a while someone comes along, someone different than the others, someone who seems to get me and... breaks down my walls... and I can't help it, I get excited... Guess I should learn to control my feelings a little better...

I fell in love with a girl at 15. We were married at 17. Now some 28 years later we have both changed so much. In my own idealistic world she was still that innocent lil 15 year old girl I would share any secret with. Its always a painful shock when you realize she/he was betraying you all along.<br />
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I feel like a fool.. and I share your pain.

I am inn the exact same situation almost. <br />
I'm on love with this boy, have been for over two years. He likes me just as a friend. I'm never gonna stop fighting for him till either he or I dies.

If your a fool so am I because I just went through the same recently. The real fool is the person that missed out on our sincere love. Their loss, theres something better out there for us;)

:( sorry to hear that.

im sorry your feel this way ..hopefully one day soon you will find someone to love