It's a Burn Singeing On My Heart

 I miss jake more and more everyday . Although it s better some days than others .  I cant wait til I am where i want to be so i can contact him again !! but then i go into the whole its not God's will if i do contact him . so im still battling that in my head . Although  I have decided im not going to message him right away  with I love you  blah blah blah blah  .  i'm just gonna be friendly .  And sometimes i think how can i thinkof having a relationship when  i live here and he lives there .  I would love to be in wrestling school when i get ahold of him but i dont know how far away that will be . Or at least be enrolled . but i dont know ...  but i also have to do these things  in order to get into wrestlng school . .. So it all kinds of rolls into gether . But i need to know if  he even feels the same way i do . But im not gonna put my emotions out there  right away . Im gonna let him do it first this time . not setting my self up for heartache                                               

starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
26-30, F
Apr 5, 2007