Fighting With Myself

i was closed to picking up the phone to call him... i fought back, but could not fight back my tears.
WTF is wrong with me?!!!
I hate myself for this
afool afool
36-40, F
3 Responses May 6, 2012

All this while, I have been trying to be okay, trying to cope with a broken heart, a demanding job. Im tired, very tired. Why do I have to pretend or try to be okay? Why am I fighting back every emotion of missing him? I went to doctor twice and he gave me antidepressant, i foight back not taking the medication cos I told myself I could handle it. But apparently not. I can't handle it anymore.

Don't be so hard on yourself. You are only human. It will take as long as it takes to get over him. Deciding NOT to pick up the phone is a good thing and you should be proud of yourself to not giving in to the temptation. I know it hurts like hell but stay strong!

I'm sorry I can;t advise you on how to get over him but I hope you can find some comfort in knowing you're not alone in these thoughts and actions. Respect to you for having the strength to not pick up the phone - there's a good chance you'd be feeling much worse if you had x Chin up, the only way is up from here?xx