Should Be So Easy

For the past year  I have been in love with someone who doesnt love me back. Last night we had our final conversation.  This is a man Ive known for about eight years. My children were babies when I met him, in fact we lived in the same building. We started working on a project together last year and then sparks started to fly. We spent hours on the phone every single day. It was rare that we didnt talk at least three times per day. Many times we talked all night. He wanted to know what I was doing..where I was ..etc.  We even took it to another level if you know what I mean. I dont even feel like chronicling the whole saga, but the bottom line is he never felt the same way I did, even though it seemed like he did. I cant just his friend. I tried. I tried to be professional and continue to work on the project,  but my feelings kept getting in the way. So I left the project. Last night he told me I was making too much of a big deal out of nothing. But my feelings are not nothing. So I guess Ive lost a friend.
fatbutt fatbutt
36-40, F
May 8, 2012