Why Does It Hurt So Bad?

I can't believe it's been a year since I've met Blue Eyes. Now he's got Ms. New who took him from me like a thief in the night. He dresses better and everything. He doesn't look very happy with her, but he's never said "I love you " to me although I wonder if he'll ever feel the same. Time will tell. For now I've got to let him be and wish him the best. Self-sacrificial love hurts especially when an ocean or two creates a divide. I'll be here for him if only he wants me to.

I love you Blue Eyes. I always will.

Brown Eyes.
thenerdette thenerdette
18-21, F
3 Responses May 21, 2012

Thank you two so very much for your feedback. I'm starting to feel better day by day and it's going to all be okay.

That is so touching. I completely understand how you feel. I'm in the same situation with a guy--minus the girlfriend part. To me, he just the best thing that has ever appeared to me and I wish things would go my way at least once. But all I can do is be supportive and happy for him no matter what.

thenerdette that is so lovely. When I was your age I too wrote down my thoughts like you. I look back on poems of loves lost now and I have a giggle at my thoughts and ideals way back then. It does hurt but time will be a great healer especially when you meet someone new and life takes a turn for the better. Print off the post above that you wrote and pop it into a book and one day open it up and it will hold special memories for you, not as a love lost, but as an experience gained. So many people never even experience love from someone so relish the thought that you have someone you will always hold in your memories. All the best.