A Little Something I Wrote To Vent Emotions About The Girl I Love.

Well this is my first time on here, i wanted to write this just to vent some emotions that i have been feeling for a little while now. I wanted to share it with you all because if anyone has any input or any advice to give it would be greatly appreciated! :)

Dear, (disclosed name)
You might be wondering why on Earth I am writing (or typing this) and not telling you in person. Well the flat out truth is, I’m too scared to tell you in person, I have a legion of feelings pent up in me that if I let out to you all at once there would be a very high possibility that you would run away and not talk to me. I like what we have right now, granted I’m writing this Sunday August 5, 2012, you and me are friends, but I know you don’t see me as anything further than friends. This is what kills me on the inside, I know you want honesty and as a friend that is the only thing I want to give you. I love you (disclosed), the second I saw you when I walked into Stone Werks I knew I had fallen in love with you, nothing had to be said, nothing had to be done, I knew I had fallen in love with you the second I saw you. The fact that you gave me some attention is what made me feel bigger than the universe itself; the moment when you said you’d hang out with me I got so excited beyond measure. Before the lunch date, I was so nervous, I didn’t know what to do, what to say, or how to conduct myself. You have no idea how much I’m going to miss you when you go up to Indiana for college, not a day passes by that I don’t think about you, you are the most special, loving, caring, beautiful, educated girl I have ever had the pleasure of talking with. Lord knows if you share the same feelings for me, as much as I hope you do, I know you will meet other guys in college, it’s inevitable. Every time I think about that my heart drops and I am saddened, but I know I must contain those feelings, I want you to be happy. In fact, I want you to be happy in everything you do, I truly do love you. Never have I felt the feelings for a girl that I’ve felt for you, you do complete me in every way. Everything about you astounds me, just being around you makes me happy, you don’t even have to be talking to me, if I’m sitting next to you I’m the happiest man alive. No woman could ever match your beauty, your long brunette hair that waves ever so majestically in the wind, your hazel eyes that reflect a greenish-blue color in the sunlight, your soft voice that could calm the meanest of humans with only a whisper. I will admit, it slowly kills me on the inside that I can’t let any of these feelings out, this is why I am writing this. If you ever read this, please don’t be alarmed by it, know this is how I truly feel about you; I love you in every way. I count down the days till I can see you again for Christmas break, I hope by then you haven’t forgotten about me, in which I’ll try my best to keep in contact with you. You’re are truly the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I hope one day if you do develop the same feelings for me that I can be the best thing that ever happened to you too. I love you so much, I hope you excel in college and set an amazing future for yourself. There will never be another woman like you in my life; you have exceeded everything that I have ever wanted in a woman, I love you.
Yours truly, (disclosed).
P.S. You’re a bajillion times more prettier than that trailer trash ***** Lauren ;)
ThisIsHarbinger ThisIsHarbinger
18-21, M
1 Response Aug 5, 2012

Man, that is beautiful what you wrote down there. But if she doesn't love you back like you love her, then she isn't the one. Look out for other girls, and the pain will be over. I know what i'm talking about, i've been there to ;) But i'm really glad that there are still people who can care so much for just one girl, so don't lose that ability because you've got hurted by one girl. I hope you find the love of you're life, you deserve it!