I Stop And Feel, Now I ‘m Going Down.

I thought I had it all under control.
I made myself like a machine;
Just living, never once feeling;
To protect myself
From the unnecessary pain
That I know will haunt me from time to time.
And when the initial signs of pain hits me,
I have all the books and movies to help me cope.
You, walking into my life,
Treating me the way I was deprived of
Made me want to stop and feel and relish every memory
I want to put some meaning behind your actions,
I want to think that I stood out among the rest in your eyes.
But everytime I stop and feel even for just a short while
I know I’m going down.
I can see you very happy with her,
Nothing will change in your life if I’m gone.
The machine stopped when it shouldn’t have.
Another breakdown that has to be repaired
But even if this was fixed,
It has depreciated yet again,
Losing its initial value;
Waiting for its scrap value.