I Have Wasted The Last 5 & 1/2 Years With You, On You...

My ex-girlfriend and I met 5 & 1/2 years ago and it was love at first site. I have been the perfect mate to her and loved her with all that I had. We can talk with each other about anything, we genuinely enjoy each others company and would rather spend all of our time with each other rather than anyone else. So what I don't understand is why did she find it so hard to love me back? She has always said she can only see herself with me and expressed how lucky she was to have me. So again, why is it that hurting and disrespecting me came so easy to her? The things she did to me and that I dealt with were things that no one else would have put up with, but I forgave her and stayed. I know that I deserve and can have better, and it has taken me a long time to get that into my head and get the courage to stand up and set boundaries for myself.

So with all that being said, here I am waiting for the 'better' that is out there waiting for me...all because I finally found the courage to let go.