I Love A Friend Who Will Never Love Me

I had a friend, and I had liked her for quite a while, until one day I woke up and something hit me so strong I didn't know what it was. When I look at her I feel like theres a fire inside, more intense then anything. Like the gates of heaven opening before my eyes. She's perfect, beautiful, smart, and just the one for me.



And one day I told her, and she turned me down. Our relationship is the same. We are still good friends, but the mere notion that I can never be with her is enough to set me to tears. It's horrible. She's the reason I want to get up in the morning, and why I want to go to sleep and never wake up.



She knows I like her, but she doesn't know how much I truly love her. It hurts me, so much. I suppress the things I want to say, and do because I'm afraid she won't like them. It makes me nervous and awkward, and things have become dramatic and lame.



I wish I could be myself around her, but she makes me so scared. I'm afraid she won't like the way I really am.



Even more I wish I could be with her. I don't think I ever will.



I have never felt this bad in eight years of manic depression.
DustFerret DustFerret
18-21, M
9 Responses Dec 20, 2006

I had a friend. One of my best friends in the whole world. It took me years to work up the courage to tell him how much he really meant to me. When I did he was very uncomfortable and the whole relationship changed.<br />
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We dont talk anymore. I keep thinking if I had kept my mouth shut maybe I would not have lost my friend.

its amazing the coincidence of stories... but my advice to u dear friend is not too give up , but to be careful at the same time. if something has to happen it will. be yourself and learn her as afriend not the love lust thing. just let it be chill... friends.. be a friend if u truly care andlove her. dont do it to get her.. learn her. and if she truly is as wonderful as u think, something great will happen one day.. good luck .

A very long time ago i had this friend, my best friend. I also fell in love with him. And just like you i also told him and was let down. Our friendship continued through out that year more awkward then ever seeing him be with other girls and knowing how much i loved him killed but i remained being his best friend standing by his side. I would not regret a thing to this day. Because 3 years on and we are now engaged with a beautiful little girl on the way. I know it gets tuff at times, but you just have to keep your head on and appreciate what you have now, in the moment and what you have is a best friend probably like no other. Give it time and have great patience, cause if its ment to be it will happen in good time and not before.

But we never know whether it is meant to be and many male friends, if they hear or even read somewhere between the lines that their female friend loves them, are cutting fast any contact. And the last hope is buried. You had an enormous luck that he did not throw you out of his life, but it is very rare. I had no so much luck as you had - my congratulations and good luck for you both!

i understand how you feel, i am also in the same boat. it's not easy being in love with someone that just likes you as a friend.. <br />
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hopefully you will meet someone new that likes you just as much as you like them.

yes... my friend...i am going through the same. And I now realize that I need to make the change because each one of us does create our own universe.

I am sailing the same boat. She is wonderful, the one person I want to be with. Its been years, since I told her, though casually, but I guess it takes a long time to get over it. Someday, when we fall in love all over again and get loved in turn, I guess we will be able to get on with life.

Too bad...

I know exactly how you feel dude. I really do. As for you being afraid of not liking you the way you really are? She already likes you, that's why you are friends, just like you might meet other women that you only see as friends, she sees you as a friend. Be her best friend, that is the most important thing.