I Still Do...

her name is Brooke. shes just the most amazing girl ive ever met. she can keep up with the guys in wrestling, parkour, sparring, what have you, but shes gorgeous as well. even without makeup she makes my jaw drop. ive known her for about three years now since she moved out here from Alabama, the first day i met her i developed a little bit of a crush. over these three years i have asked her repeatedly to go out with me, and ive never gotten a no, but ive never quite gotten a yes either. several times she dragged me into what she called a "test relationship" to see if it would work out. they were usually two days of ignoring me and shes with someone else on the third. we've had sex several times and she always comes out with some line like "do you feel like that brought us closer? cuz i do." the most recent incident was a couple of days ago, wed been acting like we were together for a while but not really dating, and I was happy so i just went with the flow. she had just recently broken up with the guy who has broken her heart countless times over the past year, and idk, i guess i was playing rebound. but anyways she has been staying in a car recently, so i decided to surprise her with a pint of her favorite ice cream, some soda, cigarettes and a blunt. we smoked and ate the ice cream and tons of hostess. we cuddled all night and when we woke up we walked around the marina smoking the blunt and watching the sunrise. we found a nice sheltered spot under a footbridge to sit and we talked for hours. we got on the subject of her and the other guy and she told me that she was thinking about going back to him. at this point she had broken me and torn me down so much that the severity of the pain from this was lost on me. i just sat there with a big stupid smile, said "i understand" and told her i wish them the best. she told me however that she really liked me and that this was the last chance she was giving him, and that she would go out with me if it ended again. as stupid as i know i am for this, i cant help but wait for her...
trainrek trainrek
18-21, M
Nov 26, 2012