Closure

Three years,three damn years I've been in love with you.Three years of endless pain and confusion.I told myself that i'm over you,that I can finally move on but I cant,and I figured out why.I need some closure!I need you to look me in the eyes and say it,say it to my face.Tell me that you never loved me,that it was all just some sick joke to you,that I imagined it all.I need you to be as mean and horrible as I've made you out to be in my mind,I need to blame you,because the thing is deep down I know the truth.I never said anything,how could you have known.Maybe we both knew but were too afraid to say anything.Maybe you think about me as much as I think about you,maybe you miss me so bad it hurts,I know I do.I miss you,I love you .I'm starting to realize that I always will.I don't want to lose you,but I cant afford to lose me.I don't blame you for everything that went wrong but you have to take some blame.I guess at the end of the day we weren't ready for whatever this was.I wish I could say all of this to your face but I can't.I don't know if I will ever see you again,and if I do I don't know if I'll be ready.All I know for sure is that you are part of a chapter in my life that needs to be closed.This is the closest to closure I might ever get,so farewell good friend.I will never forget you.
RoseAmongThorns RoseAmongThorns
18-21, F
Nov 28, 2012