I Want To Know For Sure

We are schoolmates for more than 4 months now. We started becoming closer friends about 3 months ago. I really liked him. He made me laugh, I could talk with him... And then, I helped him with his test one day. He hugged me because of that. This made me start thinking about our relationship. I've started liking him more and more. We used to go to a bus station together with a group of friends. We would always walk together and talk. Then I started liking our chats even more and I've started really liking him. I though I was getting some signals like this from him too. He was happy to talk to me, he would smile to me all the day in school, he would turn back in the middle of the class just so that he could say something to me. And the there was this talk. He said that he liked me more than anyone else (I think he thought that as a friend but I'm not sure). He would touch my arm. Stand beside me so that our bodies would touch. He would touch my hands. I fell in love with him. I couldn't help myself. He even wrote a <3 instead of his name in my Contacts on my phone. I really thought he liked me back. But then other started seeing our relationship. They would tease him about that. And me. And one day, me and my friends were on facebook and they wrote him from my profile that I like him (it was obvious that that wasn't me). After that, he was rude and in a weird mood. Than they were holidays. We didn't speak or see eachother for 2 weeks. And after that, It was like we don't exist for eachother. He would ignore me and I did the same back. His best friend was teasing me about him few days ago. I didn't know why because I didn't think that he knew. We never said that we like eachother, other just assumed. (I just told that to my bestfriends). And my friend told me today that his best friend told her, that he (the one I like) knows that I like him. I think that's why he has been avoiding me. Ignoring me. Being all weird and in bad mood. Oh, and I also know that in a group of people he said that he doesn't like me. I know it sounds a bit cheesy and everything, but I've never felt like this. I've never cared so much about a person. I love him. And I think he doesn't love me back... Or even like me more than a friend. I want to know what's going on. But I can't ask him. I'm scared of what he might say. I'm scared that I would tell him everything (too much). Plus, we don't really talk anymore.
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18-21, F
Jan 19, 2013