He Won'T GoAfter spending the day staying as busy as possible, keeping my mind off other things and trying to forget personal matters. The silence that attacks you when you enter you room where you is painful, there is no one to dilute it. all the things you trying to avoid sit patiently with mock smiles on their faces waiting for you. Making you just crawl naked on the floor into fetal position and cry while listening to Adele.
He haunts me and continuously he hunts me without even looking at me, for me. this was his opening line when he came for me: "I am a hunter"
He pains me, he hurts me without saying a word or lifting a finger. He pushes me to the floor without any action and keeps me there lifeless then leaves me to regain strength to raise again so he can come again. He no longer does this like a thief in the night, no sir, he comes when I'm most alert and draws me in so the games may begin...again and again: "You excite me"
How could someone have so much power over another being, that all she sees any which way she turns in this maze he has placed her in, is his face, right here and there and even when she closes her eyes it's all him, all the time. With his back towards her he ignores her frustrated pleas for any acknowledgement. "My passion is to create what weren't there"
I want to despise him, trust me i do and have tried but the hurt won't let me. My wounded heart does not have even enough space for all the anger, bitterness and betrayal to add hate into the mix and still keep beating: "You're amazing"
He taunts me till sensation leaves my finger-tips and everything feels like him. Till my nerves are on end and every sound echos his name. My skin constantly heated by his, that suffocates me but I won't scream. Memories just replayed flash backs or time spent together, on my pillow dried sweat that won't come off: "Can I come visit your pillow"
He haunts me and continuously he hunts me without even looking at me, for me. He pains me, he hurts me without saying a word or lifting a finger. With his back towards her he ignores me...He Won't Go
Sir3n 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 Jan 26, 2013