I Loved Someone That Didn't Love Me
because
we had stopped having sex
she wanted a nsa relationship from me... well if we're not even having sex...?
i cared for her deeply, wanted to spend time with her daily, and she only wanted to see me maybe once a week
but number one reason...
she started pursuing one of my 'friends'
for her she had all the time in the world
she'd sacrifice time with her dogs, time she 'should' be spending on work, time when she told me she was tired... all of these things had priority over time with me.
they were 'just friends' of course. isn't that how it always starts.
yet to me she said she desired me, cared about me, etc.
actions don't lie. words do.
never stay in a relationship with somebody who puts you last.
she was willing to make her a priority. i was just an option.
and she claims i ended the relationship. she wants to look like the innocent one.
she ended it in deed. she was too cowardly and too much of a liar, to herself as much as the rest of the world, to end it honestly and to my face. i had to go with my gut feeling and call her out on it. thankfully i cared enough about myself and trusted myself enough that even when she continued to lie i stayed strong. i told her i wasn't happy in the relationship, and that i deserved to be happy. she left.
you know what? good riddance.
she never, ever, deserved me.
