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You Know They Don't Love You Back When...

Symptoms of Lovesickness


One Broken Heart


Too Many Unwiped Tears


That E  m  p  t  y Feeling


Pain. Lots and lots and lots and lots of pain. So deep it cuts into your very being. Leaving scars that will last long after the pain.


When more time is spent on the person you love than you would ever spend on yourself. Even if they would never give you the same sacrifice, and couldn't care less what your time is spent on.


No matter what you will always believe there is hope. And you despise yourself for it.


When your Heart has been ripped out, and ignored, yet still can't let go.


When you would do anything for your love... Even if it means that you can't love them.


When you try to find new ways to hate them. Becuase then at least it wouldn't hurt so much.


When everything is out of your control.


When you can't say why you love them, and to you that's the strongest love anyone can ever have.


When you realize that you can never, ever have them...again...


When you have finally hit the lowest low. And no one can bring you up, and anyone who can will never be there.


When you care so much about the person you forget about everything else completely, even your health and wellbeing.


When you sit and write something like this crying to yourself, and wondering why you are so pathetic.


When you can't sleep at night becuase when you close your eyes, they are standing there to remind you that you are alone.


When you feel all these feelings, but are too afraid to tell them, becuase you're scared they might not care. And the truth is they probably won't.


When you feel their presence everywhere. But you don't want to because it's just another reminder of how far away they really are.


When the pain is so great, you feel that giving up altogether is th only choice, when really you have so much to live for.


When they have told you that they don't love you. And you would do anything to say those same words...and mean it.


But the only words that you can say are:


I love you, and no matter what happens I will still love you and I still think of you all the time. I know it means nothing to you, but you mean everything to me.


Please if anyone ever falls in love with you and feels this strongly. Don't shrug it off like it is nothing, I'm not asking you to love them back, I'm just asking you to care.


And if anyone ever falls in love with someone this strongly and they don't love you the same way, hold on to every last bit of sanity you have. Don't let it completely ruin who you are. You are a wonderful person and can pull through. You will have some very rough times. But, it will get better...


I hope. At least that's what I've been told.

wycomper wycomper 22-25, M 620 Responses Dec 31, 2006

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5 years and one engagement later I left because of his addiction. I have struggled every day for the last 4 months to move on to better, happier times, but everyday I realize I will never ever have him again; and most days that's a good thing, but right now it hurts. I just found out he had a date a few days ago through a reservation confirmation- this sucks. I have been grieving our relationship and couldn't even think about dating, and he is. So much for being the love of his life that he couldn't possibly live without. It is a hard lesson to learn- that you can be replaced by the person you planned a life with, that you were more invested than they were, that they could hurt you more deeply than anyone or anything ever has and ever will and after all that, no apologies or ammends-not one. After it all, he is looking for someone else to love.

Aahahahaha, so true. I was so naive back then :)) but the lesson's learned !

You are so right and it is a wonderful job on what you wrote. I think this is true for alot off broken hearts.

I had that same experience but by the grace of god he keeps me to love others.

I feel this pain. Thank You. And, I hope you feel better!!

Very well put. Thanks for helping find the words for me. It is never easy when a relationship ends; it always seems that the "other" person can move on too quickly for us, causing even more heartache. How much could we have meant to one another if I have just started grieving and she has already moved on?

I cried when I read this

It takes the pain to know what's good though.

With?

This Boy Should be a Writer. I am in Love with Someone I can never have. She is my Breast Surgeon. I had a lumpectomy and while I was half in the Bag with Anesthesia, I reached out and put my Hand on Her Face. And, She let me do this. But, then She bolted from the room. I was Mortified!!! We have flirted alot. But She was just having fun and playing games, while I was taking it seriously and starting to delude myself into thinking once I left there She would miss me, and have to call and see me...right?? She doesn't even return my calls now. This is absolutely the worst pain ever. It feels like I will NEVER get over this!! I can't eat. I can't sleep. My Heart Aches so bad, I feel like I might need open Heart Surgery. And, my stomache is tied up in knots so much that they'll never come out. I have an upcoming Mastectomy and Axillary Dissection. I should be thinking of my surgery, but instead, I'm thinking about her. Last time she looked around the curtain and when she saw I had not been knocked out yet, she ran back behind the curtain. So, I now face Major Surgery, amidst all of this emotional turmoil. THIS REALLY STINKS!!!

youre taking the right steps. amazing writing, keep pushing.

Wow. That's me right now.

43 years old and feeling like I did when I was 20 years younger. I have gone from the highest highs to seeking professional help and am on medication and getting counselling for my mood.

And all I need is her back in my life! Which will never happen.

The email never comes, phone never rings, texts never appear.

I never get the message. Every song on the radio says something about the relationship.

I got it bad still........................

Father God please help this person to heal naturally and spiritually... I ask in Jesus' name.

wow!!! Thanks for sharing this!!

Sometimes its best to pretend not to care, even if you do because if u show you care in a way you're just joggling that person's feelings and making them feel like they have a chance. They need to move on and know that it ain't gonna happen, they need to go and grow.

"When you try to find new ways to hate them. Becuase then at least it wouldn't hurt so much."

I wish I could just hate him or not care and then it wouldn't hurt me when he would rather sit on a dumb computer game than spend time with me. Oh he says he loves me but his actions speak louder than his words. If only he would say instead that he hated me and it was over and then I could accept it and give up trying and move on with my life. But every time I think I've reached the point where I am over it and I won't allow myself to love him with no love in return he tells me that he loves me and begs me to stay and my defences crumble and I fall right back down to where I was before thinking "it will be different this time" and then it isn't and I scold myself for being so foolish. I'm too smart to act so stupid. But it is that little shred of hope that keeps me hanging :( Why do people hurt the ones they love?

I was too smart to act so dumb... my sentiments exactly.

Im baffled, I can't even really figure out what to say. I have a heart condition and I almost feel faint because my heart just kept rapidly accelerating the more I read. I've read other peoples comments on how amazing of a writer they think you are and they're telling the truth. I hope you know how moving this piece of writing is, I mean I had to lay down so that's gotta say something. But in all seriousness, reading this has brought out some feelings that I guess ive never wanted to confront, but now I can't help it. Thank you so very much for sharing this, I'm really so happy to have stumbled upon this, and don't ever stop writing! I'm also very sorry that you have to endure this pain too, I know it's devastating, but you seem to have a beautiful outlook on your situation and I know that if you just keep that positive aspect about you that you'll be damn near invincible one day ;]

so im not the only one who feels like this..good to know im not completely alone

When I know I have to stop going back to him every time he changes his mind, because even though it feels so good to be wanted, I know he'll never love me back or care about me the way I care about him. When I realize I have to do what's right for me for once, even if it rips me apart...

Someone who really loves you will love you UNCONDITIONALLY

Did you get better now?

That was an amazing piece of prose. I'm totally floored by it. Thank you for sharing this. It really touched me.

Wow. I cant even begin to say just how much this has touched. This was written a while ago, and am interested to know, if it got better for you.

I know how that feels..

3''':

I wish I could bookmark this

Thank you for putting my feelings into words.

:) thanks for expressing these feelings..

This is an awful feeling i hate it :/ wish we could have control over the people we fall for

This is an old post but it is so true!!!

I would add to this list when you work with someone and every day you see them you fall in love all over again and then when you go home in the evening you get a little better and start to get over it... and then you go to work the next day and see them and you fall in love all over again (repeat to infinity)

And every day it kills you a little bit more

Your comment has given me hope... I can't imagine your suffering. Fear is torment according to the bible. Your situation is screaming torment.

We just want you to care.....even though we know you don't and will never want to again.....and yet our love remains inevitable.....

im in love and reading this is almost relating alot! sometimes i think that death would be more better than dealing with a broken heart! i know what love is and it hurts so bad...fml