In Love With a 15 Year Old

Its almost been a year and I still think/dream about him. Just when I think im over it...he will contact me again. Im 25, Im attractive, good job and a degree and in a serious relationship with an older man whom I love very much. In other words my life is 'successful' in the eyes of most people. I should be happy. But Im not happy because I cant be with the person I want to be with. I have never met anyone like this guy (ille call him 'x') before. Im so sexually attracted and in every way attracted to him. I avoid seeing him because Im afraid of the way I feel and what I might do. I know he is attracted to me- hes told me. Recently our friendship just died because he moved overseas. But I also think his parents are onto me!!! Fair enough. Im totally fine- but whenever I see him I cant eat for days afterwards. Ive never had this kind of infatuation...sick as it is...its very real. Now I have huge sympathy for those poor teachers who f*** their students.
DEZIRE DEZIRE
22-25, F
2 Responses Jun 17, 2007

Wow, this is... really something crazy. I am sorry for what you have to go through. I think in all honesty you need to talk to someone about this. If it's us then okay, I believe you need to cut off everything from him and tell him to call you up the day he turns 18. As crazy as this may sound. If you really love him. Yet he's 15 how do you know he really loves you?

If it's such an issue... cut off contact with him. And if it's meant to be then wait til he's 18. =) jail or a guy who'd blow his teenage load in 15 tops? lol j/k that's me having a horrible sense of humor. You can't help who you love but you can control your actions. Why is it that you feel so strongly about him? What qualities does he have that you can't find elsewhere? Like I said... if it's really love then the feelings will remain or rekindle when you see him.