It Seemd So Perfect...

i have been through a series of crushes, potential partners but a real going out never happened.not tht i cared, for me love has always been a "sweep me off my feet" kinda thing....i could wait for it to be an ideal affair...and it did happen....i joined a new school...i found a friend, anki, who was hopelessly in love with sum1 and she understood me perfectly and in her class, was the guy who managed to make my heart skip a beat evryother time.anki got our intros done....things were ok "hi's  n hello's" types n then i confessed my love 4 him(now, i feel relieved atleast he knows) he was ok..i knew he didnt love me bk..he was perfect, everythin he said..he ws cute, confused n we blended....we talkd...talks tht sumtimes stretchd 4 hrs....we were fine until things turned..anki tried to commit suicide and left the school...with her leaving my life crashed...i dunno how and why..i dunno why he wouldnt talk 2 me, i just cant....i still remember the day after all this hd happend, he hd said  a hi.....tht ws the last of his friendliness....evrythinng changed after tht...he wudnt pik up my calls...once he did he was almost scowling n i knew things hd changd 4 d worse..i was alone, the two ppl i loved with all my heart had left me anki n him....i was lonelywhy did it happened to me n not the others ..who were selfish n bad n bitchy..they were happy n i wasnt...i had to confront him n i did....he said "u shdnt  b calling me up whenever u wnt to" n i knew it ws the end....so he made the decision for us not to talk n i blindly submitted to it,....cant fight back can i? the weirdest thing i still love him,...i dont get angry..i just feel i'llb waiting for him always..all those happy memories come back...us talking, tht valentine's when u'd stopped to meet me..tht day i visitd u in d school clinic(v live in residential school) dat last day after xams ws so perfect when u'd patted me......i loved every moment y did it hav 2 end?....recently i discovered that a girl from his hometown ws talkin to him, perhaps he ws plannin 2 ask her out.....i ws abt to die but i guess i'llb ok n waitin 4 him....
serenity29 serenity29
18-21, F
Jun 25, 2007