More Than In Love

It all started when one of my friends told me to come on over to party a little. I followed his directions completely and low and behold I arrived at his house. I knocked on his door and a absolutely beautiful women about 5'8 opened his door. I felt so embarrassed I didn't know what to say, I opened my mouth but nothing came out! I finally got a hold of myself and introduced who I was and she smiled and let me in. She had the most beautiful red hair, it went all the way down to her butt. All I could do was look into those green eyes and peer down into her very soul. My buddy came out of a back room and said oh I see you have met my girlfriend and I simply smiled and shook my head yes. We all sat down and we started to talk a little. The more we talked I found out his girlfriend and I had so much in common, we liked the same foods, music and life expectations. Her laugh was like angels singing. I knew I had to get a hold of myself before I made a compleat fool of myself. Time went on we became closer and closer. Unfortunately I had mistaken friendship for love. I loved everything she did, she could do no wrong in my eyes. I met her family and her mom and I got along great. The day came when he told me that they were going to get married and my heart sank, he even confessed to me he wasn't sure he wanted to marry her and he said that she and I belonged together. I couldn't bring myself to say a word. So I finally got the backbone and told him she loves you not me. She did, she worshiped the ground he walked on. He asked me to be his best man but I couldn't do it. At the time I owned a D.J. co. and I would do his wedding party for him and he agreed. When it came time to announce the Bride & Groom it got stuck in my throat. I could barely get it out. But I did and the party went on, we all had a great time. But every time I looked at her all I could see was the most beautiful women in the world. Slowly I stopped going over there the pain was just to much. I could see her and I spending the rest of our lives together. Unfortunately the marriage didn't last to long only about 9 months before he disappeared. I tried to console her but nothing changed, she told me I was like the brother she never had OUCH that's the last thing a guy wants to hear from somebody you are in love with. Eventually I quit going over there all together. I still have a spot in my heart for her and I think there will always be.

madmanmo madmanmo
46-50, M
3 Responses Nov 8, 2008

Thanks WH that makes sense to me to just didn't want to admit it at the time! a long time has passed since we were friends I'm not real sure where she is now.<br />
thx again!<br />

i understand that feeling of being in love with someone who can not love me back. i also understand what it is like to have guy friends, that i think the world of, but they are like a brother, kind of. it seems to me, that being such good friends, would make a very good couple relationship. i have a guy friend, not in love with me, but would like to have a relationship beyone friendship with me. my fear is that since we are such good friends that if we do go to another level, then it will fall apart and we won't even be friends. i guess i am saying that it is a compliment to him, but he does not see it that way. i would rather keep in my life as a friend, than to risk losing him altogether. had a lot of breakups in my life. perhaps your love, thinks similar about you. i don't know.

Oh wow. I really don't know what to say except you should still say something to her, even if it's half kidding and go from there. If not maybe just be there for her.