One to Many

I've been here one to many times. I hate to admit it, but I have.

My first really serious relationship was with a guy who used me for.... Well whatever he could get out of me.

My biggest regret though in the relationship was this was the guy I lost my virginity to. Stupid was head over heels in love, we had even talked about marriage and yet all it was was a big pile of bullshit.

My experiences have gone on like this with just about every guy I've gotten close to from that point on. Always wanting something then leaving me heart broken when they got it or when I would wise up and see things for what they were.

Now I'm married to a guy who I do love, but we are hanging on to a very thin thread. He tells me he loves me and yet he makes me feel like me and our children are the least important things in the world.

I just wish he would get a clue.

MirandaJMaddox MirandaJMaddox
26-30, F
2 Responses Jul 18, 2007

You've hurt me, but I returned the favor a time or too and I hope You know that I never meant to and that I am sorry.<br />
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You are one of the few people who mean more to me then anything or anyone and I think you know who the other 3 are.<br />
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I love you {not in the mushy way for anyone else reading this} and I hope You know I'm always here if You need me.

you still love the git, even after what he did to you? His children should mean something to him, even if he acts as if you dont! I hope I am not one of the guys who broke your heart too.