Sucks to Be Blind

I fell for someone who never knew what love is. We met in an office supply store and I thought she was it. She told me she'd been commited on our first date, so that should have been a red flag right off the bat. But she called me the next day and every other time I would decide I wasn't gonna have anything to do with her. I guess I'm a sucker for gorgeous women.We only dated for 6 months before we got married. After we got married, she would confess more and more baggage, a lot of it erasing what she had previously told me. She lied that she was over her exes(!), she lied about how many people she had slept with, and she told me about numerous trauma that pretty much explained her fits. I had already known she'd been molested by her dad, but I was blinded by love. I thought she was the most beautiful person when she wasn't battling her demons(still is). Three months after we'd been married she went looking for drugs from her ex and ended up getting so high that she slept with him. She cried and cried all night until she passed out(with me). We had already been seeing counseling so the counselors had a field day with this. Anyway, 4 months have passed. Things were going pretty good until she told me she'd been thinking about leaving. She then realized what she would be doing and started crying and telling me she's confused. Now were in limbo. We're kinda stuck together until we get another car and none of us can live on our own cause our expenses exceed our individual incomes. I'm preparing myself for her to leave- I don't want her to go, but I'm getting sick of her fits. She doesn't know what's good for her and she's got too many demons. Anyway, I'm kinda of a sucker cause I love someone who doesn't know how to love. I guess you sleep in the bed you made.

caseywest caseywest
26-30, M
2 Responses Feb 19, 2009

i'm so sorry ....not all women are this way

oh im really sorry!