AGAIN and Again

FOR ABOUT 14 YRS. I GAVE AND PROVIDED ALL THAT I COULD EMOTIONALLY AND FINANCIALLY TO A FRIEND AT CHURCH. EVEN THO I KNEW IT PROBABLY WOULDN'T GO ANYWHERE I LOVED HER WITH ALL I HAD. SHE DOESN'T KNOW I LOVE HER IN THAT WAY BUT I JUST COULDN'T LET HER GO. HER HUSBAND, THE PASTOR, IS A USER AND MENTAL ABUSER TO HER. SHE LEFT HIM ONCE AND I WAS RIGHT THERE TO HELP HER AND HER KIDS THRU IT. UNFORTUNATELY, RELIGIOUS PRESSURE MADE HER GO BACK TO HIM. I STILL STOOD BY HER AND HER HUSBAND ALWAYS USED ME FINANCIALLY BUT DIDN'T LIKE THAT WE WERE FRIENDS. HE EVENTUALLY CAUSED A FIGHT BETWEEN US AND I HAVEN'T SEEN OR SPOKEN TO HER SINCE. I STILL THINK ABOUT HER EVERYDAY AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE HER. I KNOW SHE DOESN'T KNOW MY TRUE FEELINGS BUT I CAN'T LET HER GO IN MY HEART.

lilbitmor lilbitmor
46-50, F
1 Response Mar 13, 2009

I am sure after 14 years she knows your true feelings about her, but it is best that she stayed with her husband because God says that they need to be together for life even though he treated her wrong she knows the bibles law for separation or divorce. I feel so sorry for you, because I am a married woman who was in the same situation but I was married and a Christian he was not he took me for every thing I had to give and I still think about him every day, but not in the manner I use to. I had been with my husband for 29 years and never felt that way about another man so I know it was Satan who made it happen, it was very hard for me but I battled it with prayer and I mean constant prayer the thoughts I had in my mind was the worst thing because I knew I was committing adultery in my heart and that was something that did not please God, Now I am so much better and I do not hear from the guy any more at all I guess he figured out I finally was going to give no more. May God continue to bless you. Thank you for posting your comment, At least I know I'm not the only one this has been in the same snare.