He Lied

Five years. He told me that he loved me, but he was lying and he knew it. He used me those 5 years, never helping with the bills, spending all my savings, and in the end he didn't even work. He pawned his children onto me, saying that bonding with his kids was important, then he ripped them from my life and wont allow them to talk to me. He constantly found reasons to leave me during those 5 years, the only gift he ever gave me is a stuffed dog for xmas last year, Im sure he cheated on me (more than the one time he admitted to), he allowed his female friends to treat me badly, and 2 weeks ago he left for the last time. He moved him and his kids to another state and has not talked to me since he got there. The plan was I was supposed to move with him, but I now believe he never wanted me to move at all. I feel like a pathetic, needy loser but I still feel so much love for him, more than I have for any other man. He obviously does not love me or he would want me to be there with him, he used me and when I had nothing left to give him but love he left me.

36-40, F
2 Responses Aug 20, 2009

hi Sabitha...now don't feel that bad.you loved him and by the looks of it gave him everything you got and by the looks of it more than that.you did your best.you loved and dont cry about someone who can't see the beauty in that.please pull yourself together.I believe that God watches over all of us and i know he will be with you...hugs. take care...

Wow!! what a miserable **** he is!!..for you to love him so much and he not give a crap about you...I am so sorry for your heartbreak hun..he doesn't deserve someone so loving and caring as you..do yourself and favor, see a psychiatrist to help yourself get over him..you deserve someone who will love you the same way you love him..bless you..if you never need anyone to talk to I am here..I am sorry if I offended you in anyway with what I've said..hope you find happiness/peace soon.