I have been doing pretty well for the past 10 or 12 days but knew I'd be faced with seeing her almost every day. Monday was really hard because she seems to understand things have changed and she was back to the beautiful little girl that was innocent and just needed someone to look out for her. It killed me inside because I know I am the right one but didn't let it get the best of me. I raced back in my mind to picture all the guys she has done this to. How she looks at me as a tool to feed her ego and give her control. I remembered when she told me about going to see an old boyfriend at a bar far from home and staying out until 3am and asking me why he thought she might be interested. Then she visited him in another state and acted upset he didn't respect she was married. She went to see him even though he told her he was still in love with her. A few weeks ago I watched her kiss a near perfect stranger on the lips and give him her big smile and then look at me for reaction. All of that helped me walk away still feeling bad but no longer hoping things would change. I was insane for letting myself fall into this but sometimes wonder what its like for her husband or is he oblivious to what his wife is up to every single day. I didn't sleep much last night but felt proud of how I handled it and feel every day I will get stronger.