My Ex-boyfriend Is A Marine And I Still Love Him

 Hi, recently my boyfriend broke up with me who is going to the marine corps. this august. We have known each other since middle school and we always had a crush on each other but we always went our separated ways until junior year he told me he liked me. We started talking and one thing lead to another and we started dating in april of 2009. We had our ups and downs but we fell love and it was amazing spending time with him. He is the type off person to tell you like it is and when he tells you something its the truth. When he told me he loved me and wanted to stay with me in the marines, my heart sank. We were a very happy and healthy couple until recently. He was getting alot of pressure from his friends and recruits that he shouldnt stay with me and he should be single. They constantly bothered him about it and it eventually got to him. We broke up two weekends ago and now i find out that last wednesday he asked someone out. My heart is in pieces, ive never felt this way before. I was in a previous relationship for 3 years and after being physically and mentally abused by someone i didn't love, this still hurts 10x more.  It hurts i know this isnt him because he's been taking these diet pills as well that i feel changed him as a person. It still doesnt make up for what he did and honestly i dont know what to do. Im still in love with him and i know he still loves me, his family and friends feel the same way i do but it still hurts. I dont know what i should do and it was something i never expected because he was so loyal to me for a year of his life but now its all gone. Everytime we got into a fight he came back to me and i hope he realizes whats going on but i dont know if i should forgive him or not.  

x0odaniiellee x0odaniiellee
18-21, F
Feb 26, 2010