I Know Whats Right But Wanna Do Whats Wrong

some years ago my wife left me... it didnt end that badly but hurt like hell... i understood... she changed and wanted different things in her life... about two years later i met someone... she was so loving and kind and so so beautiful... we enjoyed the same things it was really a beautiful connection... lasted about 2 years... but i started to find out stuff from friends that she was playing me... so i paid attention.. apparently what was happening is she would be one way with me and one way with friends... apparently she had another guy .. anyway she was lying to me most likely unfaithful... wow anothe rwhack... 2 hurts... dam... but this is the stupid thing... i still love her... i just dont understand it... maybe i saw the good .. just weird... i spoke to her online few days ago... i was high whole day... was like walking on air.... we spoke for most of the day... dam ... but i am trying to be careful not to get roped in... she was a whole new evil to me... so i am trying to be cautious.... stupid thing i am feeling so happy... and want her.. but i know she is not for me and cant trust her.... i know we must forgive but i dont think she was ever sorry... so i need to run away ... far far away... hope i could... cause i know she is coming... resist.. i must..

diversinc diversinc
36-40, M
1 Response Feb 28, 2010

You can only run..when you are ready. Are you? If you feel it is the right way not to get hurt and used again...then don't look back D. Keep your walking and look ahead... There will be a better calling....So much so you may even asked yourself 'I am glad I didn't look back'. =)