A Painful Experience

I fell in love with a very good friend. We enjoyed movies, music, food, traveling...we had such an awesome time together. We were both dating other people, but not in serious relationships. We had been there for each other for ups and downs, but I made the fatal mistake of falling in love. We were in Naples, Fla. hanging out on the beach and  something washed over me like a warm blanket. I felt those butterflies in my stomach and I wanted to kiss him and a whole lot more. I saw him as more than just good guy friend. I had never thought of him in the romatntic way (we'd known each other for almost 3 years) maybe because we had dated others or what... I thought he possibly felt the same way but didn't want to say it. So one night at dinner, I asked him if he ever thought about us hooking up and he said no. He then got all awkward and things got funny between us. He started to avoid me and I felt embarrassed that I had put my feelings out there. I moved away about 8mths later. It really  hurt. I've since married but I've never looked up the one who didn't love me. 

disguised disguised
36-40, F
Mar 6, 2010