Hardest Thing I Have Ever Had To Deal With...

When I was in high school I was always the really shy girl. My senior year I met this guy named Matt and we became really close friends. He was a real jerk sometimes but I didnt care because I was in love with him. We were perfect together. He would always tell me how he was so in love with my best friend Amanda, who wouldnt even give him the time of day. I was crushed but I contnued to be his friend because even if I couldnt date him I still wanted to be around him. Years went by and we ended up ending our friendship for about 5 months...in these 5 months he moved to Virginia and changed his whole life. He called me one night and told me he missed me and wanted to talk to me again. So I did of course. three weeks later he told me he was so in love with me and he didnt understand why he was so stupid all these years and he wanted nothing more than to be with me. So he decided to come down to visit and everything was perfect (he even told me he had planned on asking me to marry him but decided to wait). When he got back to Virgina he called me and told me he decided he didnt want to move back down here and he wasnt sure he wanted to date me anymore...I was crushed. We broke up and his exact words were "its easier said than done." I was so hurt and so upset. And after all that he ended up moving back here and now he is gay. We are still friends and am still crazy in love with him...even though I know it will never happen.  :(

Lace368 Lace368
18-21, F
1 Response Mar 26, 2010

Don't be too hard on yourself about this. It's a part of life, and while it's hard to move on, you will and you WILL find a better man that is crazy about you. You are still young. Just take the time to focus on yourself and not him so much. Good luck with things! :)