Trying To Stay Positive..

So it is starting all over again it feels like. My fiancee and I have been together for a year and known each other for about 7 years. We have been living military and long distant. We always were grateful for the fact that I could say he was only a few states away and I could call him for the most part and talk everyday. But this is all about to change, another deployment and Im already starting to fall apart. Of course I am not falling apart in front of him, and trying really hard to find ways to keep myself busy. I was lucky enough to get the chance to fly up and  be with him before he leaves. I fly home tomorrow and Im a total wreck considering I don't know when we are going to be together again. It is killing me so much. I don't know how I am going to get on that airplane. For the past year we have been lucky to not have any deployments, and this one was rather sudden! So normally when I leave the airport I can say Ill see you soon and really know ill see him soon, now Im going to say Ill see you soon, with a horrible pain in my stomach thinking I know Ill see you soon, even if soon is a year or so. Im usually so much stronger then this, I guess just having a rough night. He knows I love him more then anything and we are getting ready to begin planning our wedding that will hopefully be in a few years, so that is defiantly an incentive. Im just letting everything get to me tonight. Already dreading the nights without his touch. So I guess all I can do now, is enjoy the hugs and time with him before tomorrow. All I can do is lay in bed with him while he is sleeping and cry. I know we will get through this, just like we do everything else. I have faith, I love him.
USNinlove USNinlove
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 14, 2010

I understand that. My husband and I have been apart more than we've been together, and that's including before he joined the army. We went to colleges that were 400 miles apart, and only got to see each other at holidays. Long distance relationships are hard, but they CAN work if it's really meant to be :) And now we've made it for over 4 years and he's about to deploy for the first time for a year...It's a completely different thing! I'm just hoping I can stay strong for him through it. If you want to talk just message me :D