Just Another Misfit

I've always been a misfit, have never fit in today's society and probably never will. I was raised to believe that everyone deserves an equal chance in life, regardless of class, race, wealth, Ect.... When it comes to today's society, I'm not exactly sure what today's standards are in general. Maybe for an adult I sound incredibly naive, but the world's so incredibly ****** up!

As a child and teen I had friends and was part of a click. But as I've grown I've realized that all my past friendships were built on lies. The people who I thought that I fit in with merely used me, laughed behind my back and basically thought me to be their own personal source of amusement. Their reasons were for their own self gratification because they themselves were insecure. I've learned to forgive those people but i've never forgotten what they've done to me.

When you get treated like a misfit for so long the label eventually sticks with you for life. The thing is, I don't want it to. I don't want to go through life being this bitter and cynical person but I don't know how to stop either. I've so many internal scares that run emotionally deep within me. I also don't want to fit in with today's standards because personally, today's standards means being... Well, I'm not exactly sure what? But it isn't great either.

I'd rather be me than be defined by my past or today's society. I'm learning that being a misfit isn't really a bad thing at all. It just means that i'd rather be an individual than another mindless sheep.
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3 Responses May 7, 2012

It's very hard to determine what society's standards are when they keep changing.


You're only at your best when you're you, and I don't blame you for wanting to be you.

I agree.