I'm Scared It Will Always Be This WayRight now, I'm in a dark place emotionally. I feel completely disconnected from the world. I hate the people around me. My so called family has only ever brought me pain. I'm not trying to sound woe is me everybody pity me, and I realize that there are people out there who have it a million times worse than me, but this is what I feel. It seems like every time I tried to open up, especially to my relatives, I got hurt. My mother was very angry and cold with me, my father and I never had an emotional bond, I had a hard time making friends as a kid, and I got bullied a lot.
I hope it won't always be this way. It's just that I keep everything bottled inside so much that when I start to talk it just overwhelms me and I end up sobbing and suicidal.
Ugh. I'm such a loser.