Because of Him.

even though none of this is his fault. He doesn't deserve this at all. But neither do I.

The emotions that I feel are overwhelming. And they aren't nice ones either. They are ones of helplessness,self blame and killing myself slowly for the arguments that we're having,due to being insecure.

What gets me is that this nice young man is doing his utmost to care for me,but there is only so much that he can do because he is suffering from his schizo affective disorder and I am insecure. All I can do is watch him suffer from his derealization attacks and blame myself for being insecure. This isn't how it should be. All he can do is give me partial advice. I just want to love this guy,but I have my own issues and he has his.

orangeblossom89 orangeblossom89
18-21, F
Feb 15, 2009