I just had a fun night--a party with a few friends. I should still be feeling the high of being around people I love, but instead, I feel rather low… Insufficient, even. My friends are going away to college and I can't help but be so f'ing selfish as to have my primary worry be about how I'm going to survive socially next year without them. I'm so angry at myself for being self-centered and nostalgic--basically for being human--that I think it's canceling out the good feelings I should be feeling.
I should be feeling warm and fuzzy and thankful for a nice evening with nice friends... regardless that most had to left early. I don't feel thankful, though; I just feel empty.
laracomn laracomn
18-21, F
Aug 17, 2014