How I Became Aware Of Weight Gain

I have always been pretty active and being tall it had been quite easy for me to stay reasonably slim. In fact, growing up I never even thought about weight gain - either for myself or someone else. This started to change when I got together with my first long-term girlfriend. At this time she was trim and fit looking although she enjoyed eating and drinking. From that point onwards her weight started to creep upwards. I remember being surprised when one day I saw she had a little pot belly. I didn't comment but had to look a few times and think about whether it had always been there. After time she moved away from her parent’s home and continued to gain steadily. Nothing major but certainly noticeable. All throughout this time I remember being slightly curious about how the weight was affected her body but it was not a particular sexual attraction to me. After some years we split up. I started seeing other girls but, strangely, I began to think more and more about my ex and how she gained weight.

After the breakup we stayed in touch and every six months or so we would meet up and, after a few drinks, would often end up in bed together. Because I didn’t see her often, I now really noticed when she had gained weight and also really started to like it. At this time I think she was a bit conscious of her extra fat but had probably realised that I found it a turn on. She would drop careless comments about how she had put “a bit” of weight and smilingly tell me how she needed to go on a diet (by this time I guess she had put on 35-40 pounds from when I had first met her). Obviously I made it clear that she should do what she wanted but that her body looked fantastic.

I don’t see her anymore but I do see her pictures on Facebook which show how she has continued to gain weight all over. I’m still very much attracted to fat and chubby women and I sometime wonder whether my ex is at least partly to blame for this. I sometimes think it would be fun to speak to her about this - particularly as these days, I am starting to get fatter myself. And who knows, maybe after a few drinks...