I Fail

I'm the only one in my graduating class who hasn't gone to college. I'm 21 years old, and have done nothing with my life since graduation. All I've done, is sit at home, draw, read, and **** around on the internet. I still live at home with my parents. I finally got a car and a license, and now...I can't seem to find a job, and I don't have the effort to look for one again. All my friends have moved away, and I never really had any close real friends anyhow. My closest friends are on the internet. I'm not what you'd call a social butterfly. People don't often like me. I find it hard to make friends, and I find that I simply don't like most people in general. I don't know what I want to do with my life, or what tomorrow even brings. It seems like all I'm waiting for is a chance to die. I've forgotten what it feels like to be happy. It feels like I will never get out of this pit...but that doesn't leave me giving up. I know that maybe someday, something will come for me. Everything happens for a reason, and maybe I just have to see what happens.
LylaRocks LylaRocks
26-30, F
4 Responses Jun 20, 2007

Maybe God has a special plan for you in the future, so be patient and be strong, never give up !! clean up any negative feeling about yourself, like people says "you are what you think you are". Establish as much as positive feeling, especially about yourself, college is not a guarantee for someone to be a successfull person. You're not the only one.

You are still young. Plenty of time still to create yourself. Start by making a list of your interests. Make a plan. Think of what would make you happy and just go for it. Only you can take the steps to becoming who you want to be. Not everyone goes out and does it at the same time. <br />
I started a family first. I am 26 and just now getting my GED going back to school when my little one starts kindergarten next year. I still have hope. I still have a chance at an education and career. It's never to late. And you have lots of time still. <br />
Start with a plan : ) Make some goals. And get up everyday with them in mind and them as motivation!! Good luck ;-)

oh forgot something........*HUG*

i'm sure everything will turn out good for you one day......best luck to you