Why I'm Hemophobic

When I was three years old, I had an awful satanic dream that my own mother was preforming a satanic ritual on me where she was yelling something I couldn't understand and I was chained up to a wall but my mother was cutting my and draining all my blood and boiling it in a pot bellow me. On the surrounding walls there were hundreds of semi dissected bodies that had been cut the way she was cutting me and there was blood everywhere LITERALLY everywhere. After I woke up that morning, I told my mom that dream and shortly after I completely forgot the dream (I was probably blocking it out) but still all my life until about a year ago I lived with an irrational fear of blood completely not even remembering that I had had the dream. A few months ago my mother thought I could handle it so she told me what I had told her at age three and ever since then tiny fragments have flashed into my mind at the most random moments, though I still can't remember it myself. I feel like it would really help me if I remembered that dream myself not just based off of what my mother told me, so if a dream was the cause of your hemophobia please tell me and what the dream was if you can. I think that one of the scariest things about it is-well let me start off by saying that I'm a born again Christian girl who lives in a nice loving upper-class family and also that before the dream I had had no exposure to anything to do with my dream. It has been hard for me in so many ways including that in Christianity, one major important factor is that it was by the blood of Jesus that saves us, and I can barely even type that without feeling faint! My mother told me that the only way that that could possibly have happened is by demonic presence but I don't know. Please tell me if you have had a similar experience. So often I feel like I'm the only one.
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Jan 9, 2013