Struggling this past week. So many mixed emotions and pressing needs and decisions and responsibilities. I feel like im drowning, and the one person that knew literally everything about me, that one person i was entirely myself with, hates me now, im pretty sure. I had to make a tough decision, either option resulting in losing him, and i know in my heart i made the right choice. It just hurts. I only hope that one day he'll see why i chose what i did, and maybe come to forgive me. I miss him already. But he's probably better off without me anyway. I caused him so much pain when i just wanted the best for him.. Dammit why does it have to be like this?! If youre reading this, tell me, why does it have to be like this? Please...
peaceinmiles peaceinmiles
18-21, F
3 Responses Aug 15, 2014

I am sorry that you are hurting. I know how you feel. I was married to the same woman for 22 years. Then she decided she was done... It sucks!

I think you might want to make sure you are thinking about what is best for you. Love yourself, you are the most important person you will ever meet!

Well if you miss him and regret the decision the maybe your heart can heal if you really tell him how you feel?

it is because you over think issues