Fear and panic in the air
I want to be free
From desolation and despair
And I feel like everything I saw
Is being swept away
Well I refuse to let you go

I can't get it right
Get it right
Since I met you

Loneliness be over
When will this loneliness be over

Life will flash before my eyes
So scattered and lost
I want to touch the other side
And no one thinks they are to blame
Why can't we see
That when we bleed we bleed the same

I can't get it right
Get it right
Since I met you

Loneliness be over
When will this loneliness be over
Loneliness be over
When will this loneliness be over

This song is by Muse, it's called "Map Of The Problematique" and it reminds me of my current state.

I want to struggle to get my relationship back and to be happy but nothing seems to be working. The more I pursue the one I love, the faster she runs away, so I guess I need to stop chasing. I still refuse to let her go, as much as it hurts. But who wouldn't run after that one person you love? As shallow as I may sound, I'm just a man, nothing more. I listen to my heart when the time's right and that's what it's telling me. It's okay with being hurt as long as she's the cause of the hurt. MAYBE that sounds dark and masochistic but then again, love is pain amongst other stirrings isn't it? It's my time to feel the pain again, and I'll gladly accept it knowing she was worth the pain too.

Not sure if you'll ever read this but I never got to tell you how much I loved you when we were together so here it goes, I love you. Yes I truly do, and maybe I don't deserve you but you moved my heart enough to numb the pain from the previous one and make me feel happy once again. Unfortunately It's not numb anymore, it's beating away in pain while people just go by and pity me, waiting for you, just the glimpse of you. Have a little faith in me, maybe things can be better.
WellisntThisjustPeachy WellisntThisjustPeachy
18-21, M
Aug 25, 2014