I know that I'm not an easy person to live with....I expect a lot from my partner. I am really a big ball of contradictions!! A Christian who smokes pot, an open lover who insists on fidelity...etc. I'm just trying to feel my way through this life with the most happiness I can find, while doing the least damage possible to everyone else. For many years, I ignorred this about myself and was completely miserable , despite having a life that many would envy...I cannot do that anymore.....I cannot deny who I am....all I can do is to try to know myself and to live and love to the best of my ability.