I M Married and Kiss Another Man
What i said I would never do to my husband, Im doing it now. I have kissed another man. I have no respect for my marriage anymore, and I feel sad , but I dont feel guilty. WHY???????????
My husband cheated on me for over a year, and I found out about it october of 2008.......That day he destroy me, and what I thought was a perfect marriage, was nothing but a fake one. I have never cheated on my relationships. I thought I never would but this betrayal has change me to another woman who is tired of bieng the innocent perfect person.....Have i become Cruela Devil? lol
Since then my life has change drastically, I hate the marriage life, I want out, but he does not want to let me go.......Also I think alot about my boys.....I dont want to destroy thier life with divorce, and I also dont trust my husband to take care of them on his own.........I dont know what to do! Im stuck!
So I have been keeping myself bussy with school, kids and friends....I have gain a little more freedom in my life...........and I like it!
Due to that I have met someone, a man, a friend. I like him, he is my dancing partner when I go out with my group of friends......My best-friend introduce me to him...He knows my situaton and is okay with it....He says it okay we are just having fun as friends..........
He is very resectfull to me......But I have kissed him twice already.......
I have been going out with my friends crowd for a month already, and I have so much fun with them. Especially him. He has brought the old Diana back.....I can be myself around him and my friends and I love it.............They like me for who I am and they dont put me down like my husand and mom do.......
We go to bars and sing in kareoke, we play basketball, we have bar b que's, etc. You name it we have a grand time..............
I know in my mind I am doing the wrong thing, but why do I continue to do it......I dont think its fair for me , my husband or my new crush.......
Please someone give me advice what do I do??????????
Diana
