My dreams are getting more vivid, the problem is they are also my nightmares because they aren't real. I'm so stressed about results day on Thursday, because I want to make someone proud. I need 5B's, and a C in Maths and English, as long as I get that I don't care. I don't want to hurt myself, the more I do it, the bigger the act I put on to my family but once has turned into 15 times and I hate myself for it. How could I do that to those I love, those who love me. I just want things to be back how they were, all that time ago. They will be, eventually, I know that. I'm just sorry that I'm not this happy, outgoing person, sorry for not being what everyone deserves.
ForBetterOrForWorse ForBetterOrForWorse
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 19, 2014

My darling, ease off yourself! The fact that you care what you get means you are already a winner! My daughters tried they're very best and went on to do A Levels and now Uni.... They aren't A* kids but they tried to be. Don't be so hard on yourself. Good luck for Thursday xxx

Hope you got the results you wanted xx