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I Wish He'D Come Save Me

I met this guy when I was following up on an application, It's really hard for me to tell this story. I only got the job because he asked the manager to hire me. He told one of the managers that he was going to be with me. A few weeks after working there we started to spend time together. Not after too long did he tell me he loved me. I didn't say it back right away and this hurt his feelings. But when I did say it back I meant it more. During the first few months we were together he still had female friends that he flirted with. I guess I am mistaken I love you for I am taking this relationship 100% seriously. I caught him in the act of flirting by figuring out his password and going through his phone. After that we almost broke up but he decided we should stay together, but I had to trust him and give him his space, not expect him home all the time. So I was able to do this for a little while but after what I saw in his phone before it was hard to get the picture out my mind. So I started talking to my ex to make him jealous. It worked. I had decided to go to the army. We argued here and there but when he found out I was really going we had the most loving last two weeks home of my life. I left for the army he cried at the airport I didn't want to look back because I wanted to stay strong. I didn't even cry on the plane but I missed him so much and had no idea what was instore for me. I missed him the second I got on that plane actually the second I let go of his hand. My motivation was getting home to him. He was my support system I called him every weekend and wrote a letter every day. We wrote about change love and missing each other. I had no idea how much this event in our life changed him. He had shaped himself into the man I always wanted. Finally after I got home after a five-month deployment I saw him. We had made it through those hard times. Right then i knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. Naturally after being apart so long I wanted to be with him every second of the day. He was okay with that at first but eventually he needed his space back. I don't know where and when it happened but my insecurities kicked in again maybe somewhere in between not finding a job and not having any friends. I began jumping to conclusions and asking a lot of questions. This stressed him out and hurt his feelings. I had no idea what my insecurities were doing to him. I wanted to trust him and I wanted to give him his space but I thought I had all the time in the world to change. Little did I know he was becoming fed up. He had so much patience with me since day one doing things just because I wanted him to do them. I had forced him into moving out and into apartment we weren't ready for as well as staying home with me every day after work. He now felt an obligation to make me happy over himself. Then one day I pushed him too far he ended up sleeping in his car and having time to think about our relationship. He came back with the feelings of needing time away and not knowing whether not he could be with me. I had did exactly the opposite of what I wanted I pushed him away from me. That's one year and 6 tough months that I just let go down the drain. I thought begging crying and pleading for him not to leave me would work. This time his mind seem to be set. I did all the wrong things in panic to keep him in my life. Checked his call log online called some of the phone numbers had a friend call some of the phone numbers. This only made him angry and pull further away from me. I should have done my research and saw that giving him space could possibly bring him back in my life. When he did show that he wanted to be with me still or that he still had feelings for me I ruined it by panicking again. Now I am sitting here a little over a month later with no contact with him and wanting to cry because I feel I have lost the love of my life. I am still not employed and now I have to move out of the apartment that we moved into together and I have no place to go. Even though he is not speaking to me I still have the desire to be his girlfriend and possibly in the future his wife. But I still have a lot of things to work on within myself like my confidence and thinking positive. I don't know whether or not he is with someone else. I can only hope that he is not & that I will get another chance to win his heart back. I made a great and simple loving relationship into a complicated and hurtful one. I wish I could turn back the hands of time but even in 2013 that is not possible.

If you have any advice on what I should do please comment. I'd appreciate if the comments were helpful and positive please.
LoveYouInfinityNbeyond LoveYouInfinityNbeyond 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 31, 2013

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Hi :) Yeah, you messed up big time, but no, please, read this. I am not here to spit your flaws in your face. Well, although I know I have no right to be telling you this because I've never been in a relationship, I just want to tell you that you got to give him what he wants. SPACE. I know it'll be hard on your part with all the longing and missing thing (I know that, at least, because I've been in love) but you need to control yourself. LET HIM MISS YOU. If he doesn't, then that means you're not really meant for each other. Or that it's not the right time yet to be back together. (one reason could be is that you still need to learn through your mistake, and by mistake I mean doubting and being so suspicious) Anyway, just imagine, if you got married with this guy. Don't you think you two will only end up In divorce? But, if he misses you and comes back, then, that's good. Better even because even after all what you two had been through, he still wants you and loves you.

If he really never comes back, learn how to be on your own again. Begin again. :D If you can be happy even before he came into your life then you can still be happy even after he leaves. :) You just got to motivate yourself, honey. You need to be strong. I know you're still hurt and your wounds are still fresh that's why you won't understand me now. So you need to get going now and live your life like there's no tomorrow. Find a job. Save money for yourself, for your future. You have lots of things to do rather than to regret and be sorry for anyone. Although I hope you LEARNED your lesson. :) A lesson is not a lesson if it's not implied in your life. :) And I hope you'll be able to go through this soon. And one more thing. Just trust. :) But don't be blind.

P.S. just my opinion :)

Thank you I appreciate it, I saw him today but I text him to come by and say good bye if he wanted to. He chose to. I asked a few questions to get a feel of where his heart is. He said he isn't seeing anyone but still "recovering" from all the bills.

I've been reading alot of articles on how to get your ex back and they all seem to say what you says which is give him space. I wrote him a letter on how I accept the break up and that he needs his space. Also that he was right about alot if thing and I was sorry.

I really appreciate you taking the time to comment, I need a lot of guidance.

aww. :) that's really sweet in a sort of way :) not bitter. yes, give him space. And I could guess he still has feelings for you. Just condfused with all the things that has happened. Still, be there for him :) And I'm glad I could help. :D

When I put my lips out he kissed them!!! Lol (what a loser I am, lol) not really just in love. All this time we coulda been working things out I've been in panic because I thought he'd move on quickly like he did with his ex. But we lived together and he waited for me when I went to army training.

I know he hasn't moved on yet, he hasn't even slept in his bed since. I'm just a person who needs to know what's going on and what's going to happen.

He usually contacts me within 2 weeks if I don't bother him, last week it only took one. But part of me feels he does that to see if I've moved on. I don't know weather to text back or ignore him and wait for a second attempt to contact me.

I even told him today it's crazy his he was right about everything he told me to do.

But the letter I wrote was from my heart and edited for 3 weeks to make sure I worded it as positive as possible.

Lol I even keep positive today he asked me if I was ok. Lol. He said it seem like I was on drugs. I know Leo's like to laugh too so I was a SLIGHT clown.

He put His arms out for a hug and I said " O! No hugs make thugs" he put his arms Down and shook his head. Then I hugged him and mumbled it. Lol

Before he left to see if he realy wasn't seein anyone I put my lips out and he kissed them. (Ahhhh) I guess it's true once a guy crys over you he'll never love another the way he loves you.

Wow. I'm glad to hear everything is just working great. he even kissed you. :) that's really good. and you're a leo too? haah! yeah we're clowns, alright. :D And it's true. It's different if a guy cries over a girl. you are one lucky girl :) Just act cool. don't demand, assume or anythng. just wait for things to find its own way. :) And the letter is a good idea. :) great job. :) Congratulations. I hope you two will be together again. :D Good luck and God bless. :)

Oh no, I'm Aquarius he's a Leo. So I knew he'd appreciate me being silly. Ha your a Leo, must be why I like you already, smh.

Thanks again for everything

:) no problem

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