If I...

If I say anything today, let anything go, I feel as if it will all fall down and into those little pieces that get fractured to extent they never fit back in the right way again.

So I am trying to sit as still as possible, affect nothing, try nothing, even tears, they are remaining in the welling position rather than the movement position. 

It has all become a terrible mess of uncertainty, yet I should be the most surest person there is as I know what I have been given, it is just I know very much what I cannot provide, what I cannot be or be capable of.


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1 Response May 17, 2009

Fear and insecurity can be paralyzing. I hope this passes quickly. Maybe you should allow some of those tears to fall. I'm sorry you're feeling this way.