I chose to live with and marry an alcoholic and was stuck in an abusive marriage for 15 years. I finally was beaten so badly that I had no choice. I have lived with PTSD, anxiety, trust issues and self esteem issues, but now, ten years later I am healthy, and Beautiful if I do say so myself, for 43 years old, and sober. My life blossomed after I took the beating of a lifetime, that came close to ending my life. I believe I should have left earlier, for sure...but if that is what it took, it was worth it looking back. He is still very sick and is physically and mentally paying the price for his acholism. It is a dangerous situation when you look at a drunk, and it is not him looking back at you through his eyes. Almost like a demon stepped into his body while he was drunk.